Why aren’t you?

Some days I wish I could cover the sun with dark clouds.Behind curtains of closed eyes.I sink into eternal gray,into dirty silver that holds not even a whisper of rain,but only ugly charcoal colored skies to light up my world.

Even dreams sigh their last breaths,embracing emptiness,candy,cane trees and lollipop flowers crumbling away,until I’m left stranded in Asphodel,where my feet find ash.Color slips through my fingers,it’s like trying to catch sand.

Sunlight slides off my skin,my face showing dimples and dimples are smiling open heartedly firstly time ever,my heart frozen over still.

Fog seeps its way into my veins,between the bones.I fall to my knees, to beg my limbs, even a shoulder will do.Fatigue buttons me up,weariness my cloak,numbness a crown.

let me ask

The sun is up...so why aren’t you?
The sun is all alone...so why aren’t you?
The sun is shining...so why aren’t you?